Christmas Traditions

I'm sharing some Christmas traditions today. 

Our tree
I love our tree and all it's hodge podge-ness.
This was Grayson's first Christmas but now we have two babies going after the tree.

We have a pretty big collection of ornaments and add to it every year. 
Plus seeing the way Grayson's eyes light up when we turn it on is awesome.
He has told me every day since we put it up that he just loves our tree and it's so beautiful. Plus anyone that walks in he asks "Do you like me tree? Isn't is so pretty?"

Cookie exchange
Every year my mom, aunt, cousin, sister and myself all get together and exchange and decorate cookies. We each bring a cookie to share and my aunt brings the cut outs unfrosted and we let the kids go crazy and frost them all which lasts about half an hour tops and then I usually finish them all up. Everyone heads home with a nice plate of cookies but didn't have to spend all day in the kitchen! 
Last year making cookies!

Our elf!

Leo is back this year and I think this is the first year that Grayson gets it. He looks for him every morning. Leo came back and on his first visit brought matching jammies for all the kiddos and candy canes for our tree. Now a few things to note. One our elf is not crazy. He moves and sometimes brings a treat or two but he does not make salt or sugar angels or anything fancy. Nobody in our house has the time or energy for that. 

Gingerbread house.
Leo does bring us a gingerbread house one day and we love to make this as a family. 
PS I buy the one that comes put together because I do not have the patience to put it together so we just get the joy of decorating!
Last years gingerbread house. Leo will be bringing our this weekend.

Michael's Work Christmas party

Michael's work always throws the most amazing Christmas party. They have it at a local banquet hall. They provide the most amazing dinner. Plus Santa comes and brings all the kids 14 and under a gift. It's amazing and beautiful.This year was special because my parents got to come with us. The owner of the company graciously extended the invitation to them so that we had a few extra set of hands with all our kids and it was wonderful. Here are the kids with Santa and us before the party.
Sissy will not smile in family pictures for anything. She is the grumpy cat in all family pictures

Yes Santa has panic in his eyes because Sis is about to pull that beard off.!

This was the first time he sat on his lap without tears!!! He's growing up!

Cinnamon Rolls on Christmas morning. Since before I can remember we have cinnamon rolls while we open gifts. This is one of the traditions we have carried on and so while we watch Grayson open his gifts (and now the babies) we sip coffee and bite into those delicious treats!



Let me dust this sucker off today.

I don't mean to not write.

In fact I do write. I have so much I want to share and say. I want to keep up on the twins milestones (that seem to happen every day) and Graysons cute things he does. But I get halfway through and then get distracted and then bam I'm way off track.

I guess I'm in the season of survival.

At least that is what it feels like.

My day starts early.
4:15. I do hit the snooze once and roll out of bed no later than 4:30.

I have my clothes laid out so that helps and I'm downstairs to get everything around.

I make my coffee, finish up lunches, do my hair and make up (which spoiler alert is a pony tail and a quick swipe of mascara!) I check and make sure bags are all around and then I feed Riley.

5:30. I start getting the kids up (if they aren't already) Grayson takes a while to wake up so I get him up first bring him down on the couch and cover him up with a blanket. I grab one of the babies usually Sissy and get her dressed then put her on the rug with a giant pile of toys. I yell to Grayson as I go up the stairs that he's next after Marshall. As I'm getting Marshall dressed he emerges from the covers and starts playing with Sissy. I make my smoothie and his chocolate milk (another spoiler it's carnation instant breakfast)

6:00 I get Grayson into the bathroom he gets dressed and brushes his teeth. Then we start the coat wrestling. Marshall just recently out grew the infant car seat so he is now in one that stays strapped in the car so I now get Charlotte in her coat in her car seat then Grayson dressed then I load up the car then I come in get Marshall in his coat and hat. Take him and Grayson out to the car get them strapped in then I come back in and get Charlotte and lock everything up.

6:25- On the road to daycare. I'm sweating. We call Michael and chat about our days. Grayson yells to him from that back seat. "I love you daddy how are you doing at work?"

6:50- We pull into daycare and now my second dance starts. I get Charlotte, Grayson and all the bags into the little entry way of the school. Then I go back and get Marshall out of his carseat. I check all 3 kids in and then I hold doors open with my foot and try not to drop a bag or a kid. I set the babies down hug and kiss Grayson and he is off to play.I get the babies into their classroom and peal off the coats. Marshall has usually pooped by then and so Miss Jenny gets to deal with that first thing in the morning. I kiss the babies good bye and head to my car.

Thankfully I work 30 seconds down the road and my boss gives me a 5 min grace. But most of the time I walk in at 6:59.

I work from 7:00-3:30.

I usually run an errand or two when I get out. I feel like I always have something to do.

3:45-4:00 I wrangle my kids from daycare. This a torture because there are a million babies screaming (usually only 2 but still) and someone else comes to pick up their baby while I'm trying to get mine strapped in and well I take up a ton of space. So it's just hectic.

4:20 we are driving home. We call Michael ask if he needs a coffee swing through the drive thru grabbing baby dounuts too because well we are already there.

5:00 We finally get home. We unload and then Michael has dinner waiting or almost finished. I unpack bags super quick and then we eat.

5:30 We gear up for power hour as we call it. I wash bottles from the day and then depending on the day make them up for the next day (we have to send pre made bottles to day care) I grab jammies, fill up diffusers in the bed rooms, get all the nighttime rollers around.

6:00 It starts. We feed Marshall and Charlotte they get a baby food meal (like vegetable beef or chicken and apple) oatmeal and then it's tubby time. Michael takes Charlotte in while I clean up from their dinner and then he brings her out. I get her dressed and oiled up while he bathes Marshall. He bring out Marshall and grabs Grayson. On school nights Grayson takes a shower (because we need every second we can get and his baths last upwards of an hour with a few water refills) He get Grayson in jammies while I finish up Marshall. Then we feed the babies their bottle and put them to bed.

7:00- I work out for 20 ish mins upstairs while Michael showers and packs his lunch.

7:30- I shower and then I get Grayson's lunch around and get clothes out for us all for the next day.Sometimes (time permitting) I fold a load of laundry.

8:00 We both take Grayson up to bed. Read a book as a family and then on nights Michael has to work I snuggle Grayson for a little bit and Michael heads to bed. On days he is off Michael will put him to bed so I can have few minutes to relax.

8:45 I head to bed. I check my e-mails. Scroll facebook and watch an episode of the office.

9:30 I'm asleep. And on a good night I sleep through. However last night I was up once with Charlotte and once with Grayson (sweet boy chugged water from the tap without us seeing him before bed so he needed to go! Ha!)

I'm in the season of surviving. I get up at 4:30 ish and I go go go until I crawl into bed at 8:45.

The babies are mobile now. Often times I walk in a room and just Marshall's head is poking out from under the entertainment system. I have Christmas presents all over our dining room table so we have been eating in the living room on tray tables for the last week or so. Grayson probably watches his iPad way too much and the babies sometimes eat more snot than I care to admit.

It's in theses hectic crazy days that I'm thankful for my partner. We work well as a team. Sure we snip at each other and there are days that he just drives me batty. But push comes to shove and he fights through this crazy with me, by my side holding my hand and comforting me when I'm having a bad day.

One day I will miss this. Well maybe I won't miss the poop diapers or the spilled milk on my floors because he wanted to see what shape it would make. But I will miss the snuggles as they drift off to sleep. The "I love you mommy your beautiful" and the way the smell.

So here is to surviving. One day at a time.


Charlotte and Marshall 6 month update

How is it that my sweet babies have been here for half a year? Time flies when your sleep deprived, losing your mind daily and having fun!

What our normal mornings look like 3 little munchkins playing on the floor

6 months here we go

Sweet Sissy,

Oh Sis. You are my precious girl. But really if I'm being honest your heart belongs to your Daddy. I have never seen a baby more obsessed with someone. If he walks in a room you roll to get to him if you can hear him but not see him (because your big brother is singing in your face) well you push them out of the way to see him and then the smile you give him, oh that smile it melts him and me. There is no truer love than that. You are our food eater. You love love love veggies and fruit and oatmeal. You can take or leave the bottle. Depends on the day. But put food in front of you and man oh man you go crazy and keep your mouth open almost the whole time and screech and yell if you see us feeding Marshall and not you. It's too funny. You roll all over the place. If you need to get somewhere you roll there. You are just sweet. We love you baby girl. Your big brother is just obsessed with you. He loves to give you the longest hug and kiss when we pick you up from school and then he will sing and dance for you if you even start to fuss a little bit.You had me a little worried because you were refusing to put any weight on your legs so when we went to the doctors she forced you to stand and well you can do it but your being stubborn. I think with you, sweet girl, you will get to everything in your own time. You are keeping those blue eyes and as of right now your holding onto the red hair too. And I just love it my little red head. You are drooling like crazy and chew on anything you can get your hands on. So those teeth are coming anytime now. You are the best and worst sleeper. You sleep great for naps but at bed time you are a fitful sleeper. I'm in your room a few times a night because otherwise you will squawk until you wake up your brother. Bottom line Sis we love you. You make us so happy and are such a joy. I just truly feel blessed that I get to be your Mama on this journey with you.

Your brother just loves you and you think he's pretty great too!


Oh my baby boy Marshy. Yes sorry Marshall that you are called Marshy 90% of the time. But we love it. The other 10% we call you Brubber. You are the baby that smiles at everyone. Your Papa Joe made the comment the other day that no  matter what your happy to see everyone. You give them the biggest smile, we call it the whole body and soul smile and it's so genuine. You can make anyone happy with that smile. You are pretty obsessed with your big brother. If he is in the room you roll and grunt your way over to him and then will just stare at him and smile. You just like to be in his space. I just pray that you always feel that way about him(and that he is a good example for you). You are the exact opposite sleeper of your sister. You never make it though a nap.EVER. But at night sweet boy. You sleep. And it is the best. You are also drooling like a crazy boy and those bottom teeth are super swollen. You love your bottle and your food. Although beans are not your favorite but you still take them down. Your so so so close to crawling if you could just pick your head up all the way. But you have the wiggle down. You will put your arms and legs up and kick your legs so that you wiggle yourself to wherever you want to get. You enjoy the jumper and anyone singing to you. You are my blonde hair blue eyed baby boy. And I just love you. I can't wait to see you grow and who you will become. It is such a privilege to be your Mama.


Love the bond that you two already have. It's the best to watch.


This Election

This will not be your normal election post.

This will not be an I'm sad for my daughter post, or I fear for our future post. Because I don't. I've got God on my side and I'm good with that. I have peace in that.

I'm not going to say who I voted for or why. It's no ones business really that's why we vote the way we do so that we can give that information at our discretion.

But I do have something to get off of my chest.

I will never ever ever vote based solely on gender.

Hear me out please.

I believe in gender equality and because of that I could care less what the gender of our president is.

However...... it was assumed that because I'm a female it was my duty to vote for a female.

No just no. That would be is taking us back years as far as I'm concerned.

I voted based on morals, integrity, a love for this country and who (in all honesty) was the lesser of two evils.

I voted to keep my rights protected.

I voted. Period. I voted for who I wanted.

I believe that if one day a women gets in the White House that, yes that will be an amazing day. However, it wasn't the time now.

And above all. God is in control. He's got this.


Weekend Re-cap

I didn't leave the house this weekend! And I kind of loved it. 

Friday- I went grocery shopping super quick by myself. Now normally I take Grayson with me but let's be real it takes twice as long with a 3.5 year old and I needed it to be quick this week so away I went by myself and I made it in and out in 25 mins! All the praise hands because Wal-Mart on a Friday afternoon of a Holiday weekend is nothing short of crazy. Once I was done there I scooped up Grayson then went and picked up Libby and B. I loaded up all the kids and then took them to my sisters work so they could go to Beggars night in the town that she works in. I grabbed food on the way home and then crashed. Grayson spent the night at my mom's house with is cousins so I went to bed at 8! It was awesome

I waited for the guy to come look at our roof. A few weeks ago we had a bad rainstorm and our ceiling started the smallest leak. So I was prepared for him to say we needed a new roof well after he checked it our he said nope just a section of flashing/tar that needed to be replaced and he could do it the next day for $50.00. SOLD! That was a huge releif!
It was just me and the babies until about 10 when my mom brought the kids over. The boys played Libby loved on the babies and I talked my mom into doing a huge favor for me! I needed a few things from BJ's (our local verisou of Sam's Club) and that is a little challenge with 3 kiddos now so since she needed stuff too she agreed to pick up my items too! Yahoo! I made spagehtti pie for dinner and we made the kiddos laugh while Grayson played with his light sabre
Charoltte decided to boycott sleeping throught the night and I was up with ther from 11:30 until 2:00 and then Marshall woke up at 5:15.

After my few hours of broken sleep I brewed a cup of coffee (and then another and another). I needed it bad.  On Friday Marshall started having a bad case of the runs and develeoped an awful dipaper rash I was putting on tons of Aquaphor on him and nothing was helping because he would just not stop going to the bathroom! I think it was a combo of the shots he got on Tuesday and all the mucus he has going on. Well Satruday night it got really bad (like it looked like a sun burn with blisters bad) and we called our nurse hotline and they said to stop using wipes and to give him a bath at every diaper change. So that was how I spend Sunday. Rinsing his butt off then giving him a bath. Then loading him up with Aquaphor and lavender. I'm happy to say it is almost gone and he has stopped with runs so that is a blessing. Rinsing off a poopy butt is not the easiest to do with a wiggly infant.

My sister came over to visit. We went over a few things about oils for her and one of her friends that's having a baby. She helped with the lunchtime/naptime stuff and then she headed home and Grayson and I ate lunch and watched football (ugh the Bills) and I slept for all of 20 mins on the couch.
We spent the rest of the night watching Star Wars and getting ready for Halloween!


And then I melted

I have a new schedule at work now. I don't know if I have posted about it before but Michael was having a harder time adjusting to 3 kids, and being alone with them then we originally thought. Listen 3 kids is hard and throw in two of them having the exact same needs usually at the exact same time and well it can be over whelming. Now my husband is an amazing daddy. He is stronger than he thinks but he just get's overwhemeled a little more easily and then has a hard time coming back from that overwhelmed feeling. Plus Murphy's Law states that all 3 children will do something/ lose their minds at the exact same time. It happens at least once a day.

So we worked with my boss that on Monday and Tuesday I will work 6-11 in the office and then work the rest of my shift (3 hours) from home. That way I can help with lunch and nap times. I have been doing this a couple months now and it has helped so much. Michael is less stressed, which means he is not as short with  me and we are just all around happier.

And before anyone reading this gets the wrong idea (becaue I would hate for that to happen) I do not fault my husband at all for not adjusting the same way I have. Men and women are different and we all handle things differently. But this does not change how I feel about him as a husband or father. He is simply amazing and I have even more respect for him that he admitted that he was having a hard time.

I get up to go to work at 4:30 and the twins have been having a small sleep regression so I have been letting Michael sleep in instead of getting up with me (which he usually does). So yesterday I was in the bathroom getting ready when I heard him come down stairs and go into the kitchen and then he came in kissed me and went back up to bed.

I have been having a hard time (which I do from time to time) with being a working mom. I love my job and all but sometimes I feel like there is never enough hours in the day and gosh darn it I just feel like I'm failing sometimes.The night before I had just had a long talk with Michael about it and he is always so sweet to me and listens to me be crazy.

But when I walked out into the kitchen to head to work and saw this

I literally cried. That man he takes care of my heart. That one little note is all I needed.


Life Lately

Life Lately is messy, beautiful, hectic, draining, fulfilling, crazy, dramatic, busy, loving. But above all it is blessed. Here is what we have been up to in the last few weeks. My crazy crew
This is what after school and work looks like everyday. Grayson playing and the babies wrestling.

These babies love to roll on each other now. I walk in the room and they are usually chewing on eachother's fingers or pulling eachother's hair all while drooling like crazy.

We went to a pumpkin patch on a whim one day after work. Just the five of us. Let me tell you what I left there feeling so proud. Michael and I got 9 pumpkins and didn't lose any kids or drop anyone. Plus there were no tears, from anyone! I did leave there sweating but proud because it was the first time Michael and I have tackled something like that as a family of 5.

Libby came and spent the night with me and the babies while my mom took B and Grayson. Let me just say having an 11 year old at your house is a dream. She watched the babies for me while I cleaned out Grayson's room and changed over his clothes from summer to winter. Plus I put away all the laundry and took a shower. I'm telling you a dream and if her mom and dad wouldn't miss her so much I would have her live with me.

Grayson and I made what he calls Monster Mix. Vanilla Chex, Marshmallows, Popcorn, crispy M&M's, peanut butter m&m's and then melted white chocoalte chips all over that. Then for good measure we put some Halloween sprinkles all over the top of it. Basically we just threw a mix of sweet and salty and bam we ate it all up. So So yummy.

The twins are officially in highchairs! Ahhhhhhh! Where does the time go it just blows my mind but how cute do they look?

We have already planned our summer vacation! This year we will be renting a cabin at Jellystone park and going with my brother and sister in law and the kids and my mom and dad.That is 6 adults and 5 kids and whole ton of crazy!!!! This park has a ton of activities for the kids. Mini golf, a water park, a lake and beach, 2 pools, 2 playgrounds, fishing, canoes, and so much more. Plus get this when you rent a cabin all of that stuff is included. We are so excited!

On Saturday my sweet Grandmother turnes 91. Let me just say if I live to be 91 let me be like her. She goes to church 3 times a week, knits everyday and gets up and dressed everyday. She still grocery shops and cooks. Bless her!We will be celebrating her with dinner tomorrow night at her favorite resturant.

Grayson is still loving his babies and must get snuggles in before school everyday.

Miss Thing has been waking up about an hour before my alarm goes off and so I bring her in bed with me. She falls asleep and we snuggle. I'm not going to lie I enjoy that time laying there with just her. I often feel like since ther are two babies I don't get a ton of good quality time with them. Like I'm always rushing onto the next one or onto their brother. Well Sissy just figured out how to get her one on one time and I love love love it.

Grayson is obsessed with football. He ran back and forth in our living room the entire Bills game on Sunday and went out and played football at half time in the front yard with Michael.

On Saturday my sweet mother showed up to watch the babies and let me and Grayson go pick apples just the two of us. It was awesome. I love his imagination right now. I mean we ran from bears and spaceships trying to get us. My sweet boy!

That's life around here. And it's only going to get crazier!


Show and Tell- Quirks

Linking up with Andrea for Show and Tell Tuesday

And today it's all about Quirks

Here goes nothing.....

 I must eat candy in even numbers. Yup if I have let's say M&M's and I get to the end of the bag and there are 5 left I will either give away the odd one or throw it out. I cannot eat 5. 
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 Again with evens but my volume on my radio or TV must be at an even number. Do not put it on 15 or 17 or even 21 Let's go with a 14 16 or 20 please. Also I always set my alarm for an even number. I want to get up at 4:15 well then I set my alarm for 4:14 or 4:16.
Fun fact my Dad is also this way so I'm guessing it's either genetic or he brainwashed me
Okay so all us ladies lose our hair it comes out most often when we are washing it and then it's all over our fingers. Well rather than send my hair down the drain (I have long hair I lose a ton) I pull it off my fingers slap it on the shower wall and swirl it around. So there are little circles of hair all over the shower wall.Now 98% of the time I remember to clean them off when I get out of the shower but on the off chance I forget my husband will call me in and kindly ask me to pick up the dead cat off the shower wall. 

I must watch a funny show before bed. Right now it's The Office. I have watched the whole series once before so I'm on my second time through. It's the perfect 20 ish minutes to calm me down before bed. 
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My food cannot touch on my plate. I do NOT like my food mixing. You know those people who pile up their plate on Thanksgiving and put their corn on top of their mash potatoes and gravy. BARF that makes my skin crawl. I get smaller portions so that my food can stay segregated. I actually have a plate with dividers at my Mom's house. Fun fact my brother is the exact same way. Our other siblings however are not. It's because we are the perfect ones.


I like kids PJ's. Grayson is going through a phase where he likes to always wear a tank top to bed. Ugh I like the matching kids PJ's. Ya know the sets? Yes I love those. Thankfully I have two other little ones that I can put in the cute PJ's. Plus now that I have twins I like to put them in matching PJ's. They have the sweetest Halloween ones. And not for nothing I bought them all matching Christmas ones that all 3 of them will be wearing. 

I have one more but I cannot do seven (see quirk# 1&2) so I will have to share that one at another time.

Okay and now nicknames

My neices and nephews call me Aunt Katie, My mom calls me Katy-B and my dad calls me Sweet Pea (always and forever he calls me this and I love it it's our song together)
Michael calls me Katers or a miriad of other names.

Now my kids they have the best nick names
Grayson: Grapes or Bubba or Bueller
Marshall: Marshy or Brubba or Marshmellow
Charlotte: Sissy or Charlips or Char Char

Basically we call our kids a ton of odd names
Happy Tuesday!


To the soon to be twin mommy/new twin mommy

I've been a twin Mommy for about six months now and man is it the most rewarding, yet draining thing ever. To be in it is the only way to understand it. This letter has been on my heart for a few weeks because sometimes you just need to know your not alone.

Dear soon to be twin mommy/new twin mommy,

Her girl! Congrats to joining this crazy world of being a mom to twins. It's crazy. Like really crazy. But it's beautiful. The pregnancy was not easy because ya know twins makes you high risk automatically, silver lining of that you get more sonograms!!! Who doesn't loves seeing those babies more. If you're near the end I get it honey your stomach feels like it's going to rip the eff open. It won't but I get it, I feel your pain. Walking to the bathroom is a marathon and you might be at the stage where you wonder if this is the time that huffing and puffing yourself off the couch will be the time that your water breaks.

Even if you have your babies early it's okay. God has a great plan. Pre-term labor will probably happen at some point. For me it hit at about 32 weeks. Super thankful that it happened though because it allowed for me to get the shots for the babies lungs. Which was awesome news when I went into real labor at 35 weeks. If your a first time mom just take it easy, let people take care of you and rest as much as you can. Trust me, your body is going to keep breaking down even more just relax. If your a second time mama (like me) this is torture for you. This will rip your heart out. Because you feel awful not being able to take care of your other babies. But you have to do it. You are the only one that can grow these beautiful babes. So just breath, cry when you feel like you need to, and hug and kiss your first born as much as you can. Accepting help was hard for me but I was so thankful for it because like I said going to the bathroom was a marathon.

Now here is something important, listen to your body. You are the one who knows it best.

When I went into the hospital again thinking it wasn't the real deal (spoiler alert it was) I was in so much pain. I was ready to meet my babies. But so so so nervous. How was I going to do it? Have two newborns? Forget the fact that I had a 3 year old and going to one baby would have been an adjustment now I was going to have TWO. TWO of them!

Let me tell you this the second they come your heart says "girl you got this" the love you feel and the relief I had that they were here and healthy and safe and I could kiss them what just amazing. It's okay to sob when you hear that first baby cry and then hold your breath until you hear the second scream.
It's okay that your first question is "they are okay right? and they can come home with me right?"
It might take them a few seconds, minuets, hours to be released from the nursery if they are born early (before 38 weeks). Just breath it will all be good. Pray like crazy because praying will become your go to.

Girl, Hug and kiss on those babies. I found that even when I was exhausted and tired and feeling myself becoming frustrated because "why won't they sleep already?!?!?!?!?" That I would just hold them and kiss them and be thankful for them. They are such a miracle and not one that everyone gets so soak it all in. But don't get it twisted I found myself in my sleep deprived state often times saying things like "why don't you love mommy I just neeeed to sleeeeep, pleeeease close your eyes!" It happens. Then they will make eye contact with you and your mush.

They will flip flop their personalities more times than you can count. In the hospital Charlotte was my easy eater and burper, and Marshall was so difficult. Fast forward 2 weeks and he is easy peasy and she is hard. Around 2 months Marshall was the most fussy baby known to man, he would only sleep in the swing and it took an hour to feed him 4 ounces. Now at four months she will yell when she is done being on her activity mat and she fights her night time bottle like a champ. They keep you on your toes that's for sure. No two feedings are the same, no day is the same, and just when your all I got this one of them will throw up, while your changing the other ones diaper and your three year old just dumped ice water all over the floor (not that that happened to me, just kidding it did)

Your going to go through a million and one emotions all within an hour.Crying because they are getting big too fast is normal. Then freaking out because holy cow they go through a ton of diapers, and oh my gosh how will we pay for two of everything all at once will race through your mind. Totally normal. Insane but normal. And don't even get me started on the body issues after having twins. Who knew a stomach could look like a deflated basketball. Plus I looked like I was still pregnant for a long long time after having those babies. Buy a good support girdle and keep it moving that's all you can do.

You and your partner will become a great team. You will have to depend on each other more than you know. Pick up the slack when he is down and he will do the same for you. Divide and conquer will be your new thing. Preparing to do anything takes some serious planning. All the bottles, burp cloths, bibs, extra clothes, diaper, wipes. It all has to come with you x2 and that's a ton. Plus you will freak out on him for the dumbest things (like the babies not wearing matching PJ's) when you realize your being crazy just say sorry. He will laugh at you and you will move on.

You got this girl. All of it. You were made to be the mommy to these babies, you can do this and you will do this. You will survive those hard hard days, and you will make it to the easy days and love every second. Just know from one mommy to another I'm here cheering you on, in your corner telling you those feelings are all okay to have and that asking for help is ok. Enjoy those babies mommy.


A Twin Mommy who is still trying to figure it all out and not lose her mind daily.


Friday Favorites- Twin Stuff Edition

Happy Friday!
Linking up with Andrea for some Friday Favorites

I said I was going to write this post a few months ago and time got away from me, plus some things have changed to here are our 4/5 month favorites for the twins.


I know what your thinking- I have two babies and can only carry one. Well I hardly ever adventure out to do things without a helper and so we each wear one baby. Usually my mom, but my cousin comfortably wore Miss Charlotte when we went to a local park/beach one weekend and it worked out beautifully. I like these over a double stroller (see #2) because in large crowded areas or area's where the wheels don't do the best (like apple picking) wearing the babies is just easier, and plus side, they love it! 


Yup I sometimes push this giant thing around. We took it to the zoo and it worked out beautifully. It's not cheap but it's worth it. Plus there is a ton of underneath storage. And our carseats work with it so that was nice. Grayson can stand on it and it grows with the babies.


This is my husbands favorite, hands down. We had this chair with Grayson and used it all the time. I mean.all.the.time. It can be a rocker or the bottom bar flips out to make it a stationary chair! So when we found out we were having twins I ordered a second one and we use these all day every day. We feed them in these chairs and put them in these chairs for cat naps, they watch their big brother dance around like a crazy fool and we can transport them from room to room in these chairs! We just plain love these things! Plus a ton of my pictures of them they are sitting in these. 


We had this from Grayson. Another thing we use everyday. Listen babies spit up, and slobber and sneeze out gross stuff. This is easily wiped down when all that stuff happens. 9 times out of 10 when you walk in our house this is out on the floor and the kiddos are rolling around on it. So worth the $45.00 in my opinion. Plus once they are done being on the floor like that we can use it for a picnic blanket!


These bowls and these spoons. We feed them cereal 2 times a day and so I ordered some cheap bowls and spoons. I ordered double so that we were not scrambling for them and I knew that Grayson would be using the bowls too and we love them. They wash awesome and they are a great size to be able to mix the cereal up in.

Fisher Price Jumper Roo
I would buy another one of these in a heartbeat but my husband says no and really we don't have the space but seriously the babies love this thing. Grayson loved it too and I knew that once they had the head control we would use it and we do! Dinner time is now a little easier because we don't have to hold the babies we put one in this and one in their chair watching the other one jumping. 

Other things that they have out grown that were lifesavers when they were newborns
Rock and Play
And we got the snugga puppy one because it was $10.00 cheaper!!! I love the extra support for the head 

love the snuggler covers they are so soft! We used these a ton when they were small because they would cat nap in these on the couch. 

So those are our favorites so far!

Happy Friday!


Random and a little life lately

It's been a hot minute since I have posted. Just can't finish a post it seems. I mean I have 6 in my drafts. I just need to finish one.

First let me just say I'm already addicted to This is Us. I mean! I cry every show and then hug my babies a little tighter and tell them to always love each other. Seriously I'm in love. But what is with the twist at the end both weeks in a row? Ugh! Can't wait until next Tuesday.

Grayson is such a sour patch kid lately. He will be so sweet signing to his babies and then the next second a raging bull punching the couch and trying to swing from the light fixture. I guess that is a 3 year old little boy? Who knows I just soak up the sweet moments like yesterday when he walked right up to me grabbed my face kissed me and told me that I was a "Beautiful, sweet princess girl that he will love forefer" I teared up a little not going to lie.

He loves loves loves to feed Marshall his bottle. Every night for a few minutes he sits in this chair and feeds his brother.

The babies are interacting with each other more. And by that I mean they like to chew on each other's hands and kick the other one in the face.

Geez Charlotte your hand tastes yummy

Our house has been plagued by the head cold/cough/teething for the last week and it is brutal. I have started to come down with it so I'm trying my best to fight it off. But let's be real a lack of sleep just wears down your body.

Get off of me Marshall

My sweet Libby is coming to spend the night on Saturday. My mom is taking B and Grayson to her house and Libby is staying with me and we will have some girl time and she will get in all the baby cuddles she wants.

Open house at daycare is tomorrow and Grayson is pumped. We will make a quick stop and then Michael, Grayson and I will be going grocery shopping. My mom and sister are staying home with the babies because open house falls right during our power hour (aka the time they eat get a bath and go to bed)

He loves to hold his Sissy like this

I still sometimes look at Michael and say "Babe we have twin, we have 3 kids!!!" It still just amazes me the blessing that God has given us and while we all have bad days I'm so so so grateful he trusted us with these 3 nuggets.

I was signing that song "Have I told you lately that I love you" to Grayson and I sang "There is no one else above you" and he stopped me and said "Um excuse me Mommy, there is someone above me it's God and Jesus and they watch over me"  Can't argue with that sweet boy

That's all for now!
I'm pretty sure I might get a Friday Favorites post done for tomorrow.


A day I must acknowledge

So a year ago today I found out I was pregnant.

I remember waking up and feeling like I had not slept at all. Being so tired I wanted to fall asleep in my coffee only my coffee didn't sound good. What the what? That was a big red flag for me.
I took this picture that morning and sent it to Michael saying "I'm exhausted but he's cute!"

Grayson and I went to my mom's to make sauce and so on my way home I stopped at the store to grab chip dip because I could think of nothing else and decided to grab a pregnancy test. They only had the cheap store brand and I almost didn't take them because I like my First Response one ha!
It was raining when we were leaving to head to Gigi's house

I had butterflies in my stomach the whole way home wondering what the outcome would be. I tried not to get my hopes up because it was about 5 days before my missed period and so it was early.

Grayson had stayed at my mom's house for his nap and such so I had the house to myself.

I took the test and saw it turn almost  instantly. I took a picture and sent it to Michael ( I'm not one for a special reveal) He called right away and said your joking right?
Two positive!!!

So I took the second one when he got home and we text them to my mom because we need all the opinions. It was faint but as they say a poitive is a positive. I knew I was pregnant. The next day Michael bought me a digital one and the words were there flashing PREGNANT.
One more confirmation!

I had no idea on this day a year ago after suffering a devestating loss two months prior that I would be sitting here today with my healthy sweet 3 kiddos. I'm blessed, I'm so happy, and I'm also in a chaotic time, but one that I wouldn't trade for the world.
My sweet sweet babies. I love them more than words can say and I'm just filled with so much thanks that God entrusted them to Michael and I!

I will remember this day. It was the day that gave me hope, that helped my heart heal a little bit again, that made me smile because God was giving me another chance.