6.19.2017

Coffee Chit Chat

If we were going to share a cup of coffee here are a few things I would tell you

This is my favorite mug it is 24oz and was $5 all the heart eyes for this mug!


I love coffee but I love it with a little too much creamer so I limit myself to one cup a day. Also I'm probably drinking cold coffee while trying to fold laundry because I always have all the laundry. 




Our weather has been crazy. We went from 50's to bam 80's & 90's. This weekend was unbearably hot and both of the babies screamed when I put them in the baby pool so there's that. However fat baby legs in shorts and dresses are enough to do me in I love them.



I started my new schedule at work today. I'm going to a four day work week and so yeah I'm excited. I get Friday's off so I have nice lovely 3 day weekends all the time. Plus saving that day of not having the kids in daycare (come September) will be huge.



Grayson had a weird 24 hour bug and then of course Michael caught it because that's what those two do. It was a fever and chills for the first 12 then a quick throw up then exhaustion then fine. It was crazy and I was so thankful my dad could go and pick up Grayson from school on Friday and keep him overnight so that he could get undivided attention.


So about a month ago for the first time ever I met Michael's biological father. It was crazy. After 20 years Michael saw his father again and met his brother for the first time. It was a surreal experience and the plan is to see them all again this weekend for a cookout so they can meet the kiddos.


Grayson had his Nursery School Graduation this Friday and I'm excited/sad. He's getting so big so fast but man do I love him at this age. He's so cool and fun and still (over a year later) the sweetest big brother there ever was.

It only took me 14 months but the twins room is finally to how I like it. It might be my favorite room in the house right now because it is the most organized! Love having all the storage for them with the two new dressers and finally hung up some of our new family pictures. 


I stayed up way to late with Michael last night watching The Town. I'm exhausted today and so maybe I will bend my own rules of just one cup. Just for today.



Happy Monday

6.13.2017

SHOW AND TELL TUESDAY-ALL ABOARD THE STRUGGLE BUS

Linking up with Andrea today to talk about some struggles

I'm about to let you know how crazy my brain really is and how I struggle through this thing called parenthood and marriage and oh ya know just day to day life



Being a working mom

And all the working Mom's said Amen. I mean really. I love my job I love working outside the home we need me to work outside the home but man some days it is hard. I love my babies. I love being home with them and not having to put on make up everyday. I get overwhelmed with the laundry that piles up (that's a whole struggle on it's own because man we live out of baskets a ton) my house that's not perfect and the small sand castle that is on the floor of my bathroom because I keep getting distracted on my way to get the dust buster. I feel bad that sometimes my kid listens to his teacher at daycare better than me or that my sweet baby girl willingly goes to her teacher when I drop her off in the morning. That pulls at my heart strings like no ones business. But then I pick them up and they have done crafts (really cool hard ones) and they have eaten two new foods (Marshall and Charlotte not Grayson ha!) Those are things that if they were home with me everyday would not happen because I don't have the patience to finger paint with one year old's and I like to serve a variety of cheese and fruit and PB&J.
I read on a blog once that you can be a great employee, a great wife, a great mom but your not going to be great at all of those on the same day and that is so so true!


Being a horrible wife

Okay that's a little over the top but really I'm not always great at being a wife. My kids pull at me and I answer. And then by the time they are in my bed man am I spent. I have very little left to give and some days I'm super selfish and keep that little bit to myself. But I need to be better about this because that man is amazing. He doesn't ask for much he serves our family so so good and he works his tail off to support us. Most days he is exhausted too and so we both look at each other and say "Today was hard but I still love you so much can we just lay here and watch a crap tv show" 9 times out of 10 we are on the same page. But we need to put some more into our marriage. We have a trip planned and we have a few date nights on the calendar. He is the first person I snip at when I'm overwhelmed but he is also the first person to forgive me for the snip and try and help me out of that hole. Our journal that we write love notes back in forth to each other has helped us so much. It's nice to see it in front of you and sometimes on my darkest marriage days I read back through those and it pulls me out. 


Equal time with my kids

Man is this hard. I feel like a broken record but twins are a total game changer. I feel like Grayson gets short changed because I can't always go outside because it's almost the babies nap time or lunch time or one of them just pooped you know a million things. But then the babies well they are never apart. In the last year they have been separated maybe 5 times and I try not to think of them as a package deal but most times they are. I feel like they all need some undivided attention but with the ages of the twins it's hard to do that. Michael and I have been discussing this a lot lately mostly for Grayson because he is more aware and we are working on some solutions for this. 


Me time
Wait what? I'm the worst at this. I pass up a pedicure because I have already been gone from the house for work that day. I pass going for a walk alone because Grayson and Marshall want to come. But sometimes I need it. So I need to work on filling my cup too. You know that whole think that everyone says you can't pour from an empty one well I try to a lot and often it ends in tears from all parties. 


Some smaller struggles

Not eating dessert every night because my thighs really don't need it but my heart says enjoy the darn ice cream

Living our of laundry baskets

Relaxing vs. crossing something off the never ending to do list

Can I really go one more day without washing my hair?


Happy Tuesday!

6.07.2017

It's all down hill from here

Well it happened. On Friday I turned the big three-oh.  THIRTY

I remember being a kid and thinking how old my mother seemed at 32. Well folks now I'm there only thing is my kid things I'm 9746. Should probably get to working on the whole age thing with him. 


I had the best birthday weekend. Normally I don't take a whole weekend but it just kind of worked out that way this year. 

Friday (my actual birthday) Michael and I both took the day off. We dropped the nuggets off at daycare and headed to breakfast. We went to Tim Horton's got a breakfast sandwich and some coffee and just enjoyed our breakfast. 

Then we headed to do some birthday shopping for me. We hit up Target first and got some good deals. I of course could not resist some cute clothes for the kiddos and we needed diapers so we grabbed those too. But it was so nice to not have to worry about rushing back to the kids or having to go before a meltdown started. We just walked the isle's and looked at whatever we wanted. I cannot tell you the last time we did that.

We left Target and headed to the Christmas Tree Shops. I got a giant coffee mug and some sand buckets for the kids for my mom's house. It was a quick stop but that coffee mug made it worth it.


We headed to lunch at my favorite place for chicken tenders. Tully's. It is a local chain, there are 5 in total 3 local and 2 in Syracuse. Funny enough Michael knows the owner because they used to play pool together in Syracuse. We decided to eat at the bar because it was empty and we love eating at the bar. A plate of loaded fries later and an order of Tully's tenders and we were off to the mall.

I needed some new bra's because things have finally settled after having the twins and they have settled way south so I needed some help in that department. 


We then went to get me a new set of kicks. I got the best sneakers. They felt awesome from the time I put them on and I'm in love with them. We were shopped out and I had blown through my birthday budget. So we found a parking spot in the shade locked the doors and took a half an hour nap in the car (!!!) #parentsoftwinsthatareteething

We then headed to pick up our nuggets and grab a pizza for dinner. My parents and sister came over for cake then we crashed into bed. 

Saturday I had my second micro-derm facial and then I swung by to get steaks for dinner that night. After nap my sweet mom and aunt each came and took a baby and Aunt Halli had already grabbed Grayson to take him and Brayden to the Star Wars baseball game. So that left Michael and I with a stretch of 24 hours kid free!!!! This was the first time that we have been home together without kids since the babies were born. We got a ton of yard work done and then had a wonderful steak dinner and watched the two movies!!! The Bourne Identity and Good Will Hunting. Michael was stunned that I had not ever watched Good Will Hunting. 

We slept in!!! We slept through the night without having to wake up to kids!! We only slept in until 6:45 because when your a parent you cannot sleep past 7 I'm convinced of it!

Sunday we got up and watched another movie (Bourne Supremacy) while we ate breakfast then got to work on putting together the second dresser for the twins room. I got that all organized and now 16 months after they were born the nursery is done ha! We watched another movie (Bourne Ultimatum) and then got ready for my birthday dinner. We met my family for dinner at our local Italian place and had a wonderful meal. We got home put the nuggets to bed and then crashed. 


It was such a good weekend. I had the best birthday. And now it's all downhill from here right? I'm kidding my 20's were great. I'm really excited for what my 30's hold.