2.29.2016

Our WaterPark Adventure.....My last big outing

This weekend I took my last big outing before the babies come. My husband does not trust me to sit and relax and so he told me I'm not allowed to do anything on my own anymore unless him or my mom go with me. And to an extent he is right. I'm a get things done kind of gal and I really need to be growing these babies more than anything so with that I hang up my outings hat and plan to just take these next 6 to 9 weeks easy and snuggle my biggest boy as much as I can.

Anyway

Friday- I scooped up my boy from school and we headed to the store to get snacks for our weekend away. If there is anything I have learned it's that kids are always hungry even 10 seconds after they just finished dinner they want a snack so we grabbed snacks and food for breakfast. Then it was baby doughnut time and we were headed home to a wonderful steak dinner with homemade potato chips. Yum just what I have been craving.


Saturday- We were up and dressed early, well Grayson was because my sister was taking him to the aquarium for a few hours.

She had gotten a free family pass for this weekend only and wanted to take Grayson. The aquarium is not that great but since it was free they went and he loved it ! Plus he loved looking at the Falls! I stayed home and got us all packed up to head to the water park.I took a shower, went through some packages that were for Grayson's birthday and just sat with my feet up the rest of the time. My Aunt stopped by with some cookies for the trip and some quarters for the arcade there. Then my Grandma and Aunt stopped by with some gifts for the twins, two beautiful homemade baby blankets from one of their friends and two Rock n Play's for the babies! I'm over the moon excited about those. Grayson came home while they were still there so they got to visit with them. He refused to nap I think he was to excited and then Mary Kay dropped off Libby and B. Michael and Mary loaded up all the kids and we headed out to pick up Aunt Halli. A quick stop for water and we were on the road. About halfway through the trip Grayson said "mommy I'm tired can I close my eyes?" Sure thing buddy and like that he was out.

 He got in a 45 min nap before we got to the hotel and checked in.
We headed up to our room got changed right away for the water park and headed down. It was insane. Thankfully we found a table and chair so I could sit and put my feet up but there were a ton of kids. Grayson was not a huge fan because all over the small wadding pool were buckets that dumped on you once they were full and home boy does not like water in his eyes. B and Grayson swam for about an hour and then we wrangled all the kids up to the room to change for dinner.


That was a cluster because the restaurant that is attached to the hotel has a menu on line I checked it before we left they had mac and cheese for the two boys so I figured okay all good. Well on that night they decided to serve a buffet that did not have mac and cheese on it. So after trying to find a restaurant that had mac and cheese and no wait we threw up the white flag and ran to Target (which was in the same parking lot as our hotel) and got the two boys some mac and cheese and myself a pizza and bread sticks and the three of us had a picnic dinner on the cooler in our room while the rest of our group went to the buffet, which they said was way over priced and not that good.

It was finally bed time and we were all sound asleep until midnight when we got a prank call and I almost lost my mind. Thankfully the kids in my room slept through it. They were up at 6:30 we ate some breakfast, jumped on beds, watched some iPad and then everyone but me headed back down to the water park. I stayed up in the room and relaxed. I was having some braxton hicks and was experiencing some swelling so I laid in bed with my feet up and both stopped pretty quickly. We packed up and checked out at 11 and then made our way home.


It was a fun weekend but exhausting being 27 weeks pregnant with twins. I came home and got Grayson down for a nap and then I just sat with my swollen feet up for the rest of the night. I'm glad I took Grayson he had the best time but I agree with my husband that was it. I just can't do all the running around anymore.

Tomorrow we have our sonogram so I can't wait to see the babies then!

Happy Monday!

2.26.2016

Bumpdate week 27








How far along? 27 weeks

Total weight gain: 43 pounds
Maternity clothes? Yes I had to buy some bigger tops because I’m so far out the ones I had were starting to get too short.
Stretch marks? Yup I’m for sure stretching out

Sleep: Knock on wood pretty good this week.
Best moment this week: I had a really sweet moment with my mom where she told me she was so proud of how I have been handling this pregnancy it was what I needed to hear Plus I could start using my clarisonic again for the beginning part of my pregnancy my face was so sensitive it hurt to use, thankfully that is gone and I can use it again!
Miss Anything? I can’t wait to sleep on my stomach!
 Movement: Yes two ninjas in there. And my stomach can take on any shape at anytime sometimes they move in opposite directions and man does that take my breath away

Food cravings: Raisin Bran I could sit down and eat a whole box. Still haven’t gotten that milk shake
Anything making you queasy or sick: I have had to cut down my meals and eat more often. I’m now eating about every hour and a half to stop with the reflux issue. Sometimes it works sometimes it doesn’t
 Gender: Boy and Girl
Labor Signs: Nope

Symptoms: Lower back and hip pain. A crazy looking stomach and the being exhausted has returned. I could nap at any point in the day.
Belly Button in or out? Out
Wedding rings on or off? Off
 
Happy or Moody most of the time: HAPPY!

Looking forward to: We have another sonogram on Tuesday and this weekend I’m taking Grayson away to a hotel/water park as our last little adventure just me and him.
Grayson: He asked to see the babies again so he will be going to the sonogram with us on Tuesday. He told me I don’t have to worry because he is going to be a superhero and take care of the babies. Sweet sweet boy.
The room is all cleaned out and ready for the clothes. I just need to wash and organize them all. My doctor has told me that I’m on a week to week basis when it comes to work. He will either give me the thumbs up or thumbs down every week if I’m allowed to go back or have to start staying home. I’m measuring 37 weeks so about 10 weeks ahead. Soon I will start to have more tests done like non stress tests and more frequent sonograms. His goal is 34 weeks. My goal is 37 he laughed when I said that because I have a history of a big baby that I need to be okay with them coming at 34 weeks. This is hard for me so I’m just trying to pray about it, take it as easy as possible and do what I can when I feel good. Overall I do feel pretty good, I just get tired really easy and get short of breath faster. I think the hardest thing for me with this pregnancy is that there are so many uncertainties, and being treated like a high risk pregnancy is so different. We are just so thankful to have had such an easy pregnancy so far.  

2.23.2016

The spillings of my brain

Grayson is growing up so much. He is starting to know days of the week mostly just based on our routine but he can tell you each day what he does. For example Monday morning he said "Today I stay home wif daddy and den tomorrow I say home wif daddy, den I go to school, den we watch pawpatrol, den it's baby doughnut day wif mommy!" That's pretty much his whole week and they watch paw patrol on Thursday's and he knows that is his one TV day at school.


My Aunt has so graciously offered to watch the twins for us one day a week. I almost cried when she told me. That will save us a big chunk of change a month on the daycare bill and give Grayson and I a built in day to run errands after work baby free.



My belly is growing,and so is my appetite. The babes must have had a growth spurt this past weekend because I could not satisfy my hunger, it was crazy. I tried to go healthy every other snack but when you go to the kitchen to get something to eat and see Bugles your pregnant brain will think of nothing else.


Someone said to me this past weekend they that they can "so relate to me because they had their babies 12 months apart,and that's like the same as twins" I just smiled and changed the subject because honey that's not the same as having twins. 1st of all the pregnancy is different as in the fact that you had 2 separate pregnancies and 2nd you didn't have two newborns at the same time. I'm not saying that she didn't have her challenges but it is still different.


Someone at work was talking badly about their spouse and I made the comment that if I ever found out that Michael talked that way about me when I wasn't around I would be crushed and they said how long have you been married? 6 years I said and they told me to give it time. I mean I sure hope not. I hope that we are not that disrespectful to each other and justify it by being married for so long.



We have had a pretty mild winter here by Buffalo standards however a few Friday's ago it got so bad that they shut down our office and so I went and got my sweet boy from school and oh my word it was really bad to drive in. I don't think I went over 20 mph the whole way home my normal 20 min commute took an hour and 20 min but my sweet boy the whole time kept telling me "it's okay mommy I'm here wich you your doing do good mommy I love you!" He was so good to me and kept me calm because there were for sure points where you couldn't tell if you were on the road or not.


Because of said snow when my parents had Grayson they took him sledding at the old middle school that has a long driveway that is a hill and he had a blast. He giggled the whole time and kept saying okay now I go again! I love that they take him to do such fun stuff and I really love that they take videos so I don't feel so left out.


Michael and I have all our shopping done for the twins and I may or may not have over done it by getting it all organized this past weekend. I have the clothes split up the bath stuff all ready and now next on my list is washing everything and putting it away although Michael says I'm not allowed to do that but we will see. Next thing on my list is packing my hospital bag because next week I will be in the 3rd trimester and ish is about to get real.


I'm taking Grayson to a hotel about half an hour away that has a water park in it this Saturday. My sister is bring Lib and B and my cousin is coming with her son. We got an awesome Groupon deal that included the hotel and water park passes. They have the best splash pad that Grayson can just sit in and play with B in so I will just be a spectator this weekend but still get to be with him. I think this is my last "big" thing I can do with him because I'm just getting that big.


I got my pistol permit on Monday. It's really anti-climatic for me because I can't shoot being pregnant. But at least I have it now and when I'm not pregnant I can start my target practice courses. 


Happy Tuesday!

2.18.2016

26 week bump date



Just for fun at the end I posted my picture from my 20 week lets just say wow how much has changed in 6 weeks.



How far along? 26 weeks

Total weight gain: 40 pounds I go to the doctors today so we will see if this has changed
Maternity clothes? Yes I wish it was acceptable to wear yoga pants all day everyday. Plus this whole winter thing is tough while pregnant because the struggle to get boots on is real. Can it be flip flop weather yet?
Stretch marks? No new ones. Using lotion twice a day morning and night.

Sleep: I take it when I can get it. My hip pain is off the charts and so getting comfortable to sleep is pretty rough I had a really good night of sleep last night so that was good.
Best moment this week: A day date with my hubby, and seeing pictures of Grayson sledding with my parents while we were shopping
Miss Anything? I can’t wait to sleep on my stomach!
 Movement: Yes two ninjas in there. And this week my stomach has started having very lop sided moments

Food cravings: Raisin Bran I could sit down and eat a whole box. I have been digging my yogurt and English muffin with peanut butter. Now that I’m writing this I could go for a nice big chocolate milkshake.
Anything making you queasy or sick: The heartburn has been better but I still have some acid reflux. Cutting down on the acid foods has helped but has been hard because I have been digging the little halo oranges
 Gender: Boy and Girl
Labor Signs: Nope

Symptoms: Lower back and hip pain. My stomach has felt like it is going to burst open a couple times this week because of how they have been positioned. Thankfully putting on lotion and laying on my side has relieved it, I know this is something that will just keep happening because I’m only going to get bigger.
Belly Button in or out? Out and Grayson keeps asking me why I have a button sticking out.
Wedding rings on or off? My band is off but my engagement ring is on.
 
Happy or Moody most of the time: HAPPY!

Looking forward to: Our appointment today. I always like to hear those heartbeats and getting the nursery finished
Grayson: He loves to lay on my belly while we watch TV, plus he keeps telling me that he will help take care of the babies but only to burp them.
So Monday we went and got the rest of the things we need for the twins. Our big things were a second car seat and base and monitor plus a lot of other small things like sheets, burp cloths, swaddles, bottles and bibs. Well I love that we have it all done and I love technology because I was able to price compare on Amazon right in the store and saved us close to $200 because Amazon was cheaper. The rest of the packages should be here today and then over the next two weekends we will work on getting the nursery organized and all ready for the babies. Everything says have it all ready by 30 weeks and I think we will be able to get that done. My Mom is going to come over and help Michael finish up with cleaning and such and then we can organize things. We didn’t buy a ton of clothes because I want to see what size they will be before we go crazy buying newborn and such. Plus the clothes that my family has already bought is more than enough. That little girl has a ton of cute dresses. Michael did pick out one clothing item for each of them and we did get them snow suits for the next winter because they were on sale for $12.00. Can’t beat that. I’m just really so excited and happy. I know that things will get done and that it’s okay to ask for help. I’m really trying to focus on doing special things with Grayson while it’s still just him. I have a fun weekend getaway planned for us next weekend. 



2.17.2016

All the feelings I have had up until this point....an innerdialouge of sorts.

Pregnant women are hormonal. Throw in double the hormones because of twins and you have a disaster.


I cry a lot lately. I also forget a ton of things all the time. Plus the other day I put the peanut butter and Pam in the fridge along with glass cleaner. I'm a train wreck.

Finding out we are having twins my initial reaction was pure joy!!! I just kept thinking
I always wanted 3 kids and look at that we will be having 3 kids, Oh my gosh 3 kids and 2 the same age, Please God guide me through this.

But after that wears off which it did about 10 days after our 12 week scan I got nervous and overwhelmed.

I made the mistake of googling some things about twin pregnancies while reading these I had a major meltdown
Oh my she got taken out of work at 27 weeks, I can't stop working at 27 weeks I need to work up until I have the babies, that mom had her babies in the NICU for 3 weeks, I can't come home without babies, I better start saving now in case I get put on bed rest.

Then lets not forget the fact that I have had a miscarriage and that made me a phsyco for the first 4 months.
I coughed and felt a pain, oh no something is happening, I'm not as sick today as I was yesterday, oh no something is happening, What if that lunch meat wasn't as heated as it should have been and oh crap I ate a hot dog but it was grilled is that okay? Just move already babies so I know your cooking in there!


About .25 seconds after our 12 week ultrasound to confirm that they were both healthy and growing I had this melt down with tears in my eyes
We need to buy another crib, car seat, we need 2 bassinets, another swing, more bottles, oh my gosh the formula, and what if we have a girl(s) I have zero girl clothes, and it is given that they won't come out 10 pounds each so I will need newborn clothes for both and another monitor oh my gosh all those diapers and daycare, we are going to go broke with having 2 babies at once


Thinking of Grayson
This is going to change his life. What if he hates being a big brother for 3 years it has just been our little unit of 3 now we are rocking his world with 2(!!!!!) babies at once. What if because at the end of my pregnancy and after my c-section I can't pick him up he starts to pull away from me? I will lose my mind if my buddy pulls away from me. Am I doing him some huge injustice because he is going to be the older brother of twins. I have to keep his schedule the same and make sure that he has special time with Michael and I. Please God lay it on my sweet boys heart to be a big brother, a leader, and to love unconditionally and know that we love him more than words can ever say.

Our family is amazing and has already helped us out beyond what they needed to do. My sister and brother bought us our swing and highchair. My Aunts all went in on our crib and some new sheets. Our parents bought us the mammoth stroller that will house all the kids and gave us money for the monitor we want. My grandmother bought us the bassinets for the babies and my Aunt gave me money for the baby keurig to make formula. The support has been overwhelming and the girls in my family have already been shopping and buying outfits.


Plus in God showing me that he is always good I got a pretty nice Christmas bonus at work this year and so that is helping us out majorly in preparing for the twins and for what might come if I have to be taken out of work.

Fingers crossed my pregnancy (as far as twin pregnancies go) has been pretty uneventful. I can still work and take care of Grayson (for the most part baths are pretty hard with the bending over the tub and all) but I'm over halfway there and still trucking along.


I have all the feelings everyday sometimes within the same hour I can be crying because I don't know how I'm going to manage 3 kids and then crying because I can see God at work helping us every step of the way.

This pregnancy is crazy and so different from my last but I remember these feelings too. Look at our lives and wondering how can we even do this? And that was just with one and 3 years in I think we have it down now we are just going to lean on eachother our familes and God to get us through this next transition and all my emotional breakdowns.

2.11.2016

24&25 week bumpdate

 




How far along? 24 & 25 weeks

Total weight gain: 40 pounds My doctor is not concerned at all about this he said that in his experience the healthiest twins have been ones where the mama gained well over 60 pounds.
Maternity clothes? All day everyday when I’m home it’s maternity yoga pants allll the time.
Stretch marks? No new ones. Using lotion twice a day morning and night. I know they are coming and I’m okay with it. Heck once these babies are born and healthy I will have earned those stretch marks

Sleep: It’s a lot of work to roll over in bed. Plus I have been having horrible insomnia some nights so I just take sleep when I can get it.  
Best moment this week: We celebrated B’s 5th birthday and I got a massage it was ahhhmazing. Plus we got to see them on a sonogram.
Miss Anything? I can’t wait to sleep on my stomach!
 Movement: Yes two ninjas in there.

Food cravings: Kraft Mac n Cheese you know the kind in the blue box? Yeah that plus I really have been digging eggs. Chip dip has come back with vengeance. Plus I have been digging those little halo oranges however they give me the worst heartburn.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Just heartburn after certain things I have really cut down on the sweets/grease filled foods so that has helped. I think I have more acid reflux than heartburn because sometimes I will throw up a little bit after I eat no matter what it is and I’m sure that is just due to the lack of room my stomach has.
 Gender: Boy and Girl
Labor Signs: Nope

Symptoms: Just getting bigger by the day and I’m okay with that. Oh yeah plus my first bloody nose ever in my life this week. That was crazy.
Belly Button in or out? In and out depends on the babies movement
Wedding rings on or off? My band is off but my engagement ring is on.
Happy or Moody most of the time: HAPPY!
Looking forward to: Monday Michael and I have the whole day off together to get our shopping for the twins done. I’m so excited to have that checked off our list.
Grayson: He came to our sonogram with us last week and loved seeing the babies. He then said he was naming is brother don’t touch my toys and his sister cereal. Good choices! Ha!
So at the beginning of last week I got a call that I failed my 1 hour glucose test. I was super bummed. I really didn’t want to do the 3 hour. But I decided to just get it done and over with so the next day (Tuesday) I decided to work from home and go get my 3 hour test done first thing in the morning. Let me just say that 100 gram drink was so bad. It was like drinking kool-aid that had tripled the sugar in it. Plus after having to fast and drink it on an empty stomach I had a headache the rest of the day. Anyway, I went to the doctors on Thursday where we got the two thumbs up that the babies were doing awesome weighing in at 1 pound 13 ounces (baby girl) and 1 pound 12 ounces (baby boy). I then asked him about my glucose test and he said he’s not surprised I failed it because I have two placentas and that most people pregnant with multiples fail the one hour. Plus I just failed it. Like the cut off is 130 I was at 134. He has no doubt that I will pass my 3 hour and that everything is fine, and since it has been over a week and I have not heard anything I’m going by the no news is good news. We also talked about working and he has agreed that as long as my body can handle it and the babies are doing okay that I can work up until my c-section. That makes me so happy because some doctors in our area are quick to pull out of work and I would go crazy not working. I feel better about everything in the last week. Plus seeing my two babies with my biggest baby was awesome. Grayson loved seeing the sonogram and my mom got to come too so that was special. I guess I have been having a hard time because people find it okay to comment on my size. I get a lot of “You’re so big and still have such a long way to go I would slow down on the eating if I were you” or “You’re not going to make it to term you will have those babies early” and my favorite “There is no way you will be able to work and take care of Grayson much longer get ready for bed rest” Ugh! The last thing I want to hear is that I can’t take care of my boy. I just can’t believe that people think its okay to say things like that to anyone. But I’m doing better, trying to remember perspective and my doctor says I’m doing good and he is the one that knows. Plus this week when I was talking to Michael I said that we have anywhere from 10 to 13 weeks until the babies come. He told me to stop counting in weeks because it sounds too soon and to use months until we get to the last month. Ha! This pregnancy is flying by!