I really am.

No I didn't make any crafts today, or make some 3 course meal. But I did many things that give me SUPER MOM status.

Let's start from the beginning of my day.

5:45 am I got my threenager up and dressed in time for my sister to pick him up for school. We had no tears or time outs so that gives me my status right off the bat. I could have stopped there but I didn't.

I made a cup of coffee and fed my 5 week old twins. They both burped without spitting up and then they went back to sleep. All the praise hands out there because yay!!! I drank my coffee warm. Again SUPER MOM!!!

I talked to my husband on one of his breaks and got to give him undivided attention. Okay this one is SUPER WIFE status but I'm counting it.

I fed the babies again and got them dressed in outfits... SUPER MOM.

Then I did 2 loads of laundry, I pulled out all of Grayson's summer clothes and organized the twins clothes ( I already had to pack up newborn clothes how is that possible already?)

I made a second cup of coffee.

I washed all 16 bottles (and that is just one days worth because #twinlife)

I fed babies again and then realized my coffee was cold but wait I'm still SUPER MOM because I just dumped it over ice and pretended I got to get out of the house and get a fancy iced coffee.

I refilled our k-cups, put away all the clean bibs and burp cloths, put away diapers. Packed the diaper bag for tomorrow.

When Grayson got home I made him a smoothie for dinner with spinach in it and he ate it!!!!

I gave all 3 kids baths.

I made Michael lunch.

I made a list of all the errands I need to get done tomorrow and a list of questions I have for the doctor about the twins.

I went to bed before midnight.

Sure this seems like an average day, but I did it all. I survived, I didn't lose my mind and that makes me SUPER MOM.

Everyday I do things that help my family. Nope we are not all Pintrest crafty over here. My bathroom sink has toothpaste all over it. I still have 4 loads of laundry that need to get done. My sons toy room looks like it exploded. And if I really focused on all those things I would feel like a mom failure. However, in this stage in my life, in this moment in time I need to focus on what I did do.

I'm Katlin and I'm a SUPER MOM.


Life Around Here

It's pretty crazy.....

Michael and I just had a talk the other day how we have to let go of how it was when Grayson was a baby. We both kept saying " we don't remember Grayson doing..." or " We could get so much more done when Grayson was a baby" and then I said to him we have got to stop that. I mean one- we have two babies and two- we also have a 3 year old. It's so different and we just have to give eachother and ourselves a little bit of grace and just get done what we can.

Monday's and Tuesday's are our days together as a family and always seem jam packed.

Monday we get up after having about 6 hours of broken sleep(usually 2-3 hour stretches) around 6:30-7 and we feed the babies while Grayson eats breakfast and watches a show. I use the term watch loosely because he is usually up pulling out a million and one toys all of which he needs you to turn on or fix while your trying to feed one of the babies or your in the middle of chaning a diaper.

That is usually done around 7:45 and Michael and I gulp down some coffee and breakfast and make out a grocery list. Now that I'm feeling better from the c-section I take Grayson with me to run errands. We grocery shop, get baby supplies (all the diapers), and usually have a few more stops like the bank or post office. We try to leave around 9 and get back between 11:30 and 12 it just depends on where we have to go. Then it's nap for Grayson and project time for Michael and I. This week we built our new dresser that we are using as the TV stand in the living room. The week before we started some work outside and going through the baby room. We use this chunk of time to get things done.

After that it seems like a complete mess. The babies eat again around 3 which is usually when Grayson wakes up. Then him and Michael head outside to do some yard work while I start dinner/ lunch prep for the week. Then we eat. Then it's dishes and washing bottles. Bath for Grayson. Then the babies eat again at 7. Grayson goes up to bed around 8 then we just crash. If the babies let us.

Right now they are on a rough eating schedule of 7, 11 and 3. So we are up twice through out the night and when we can do it together it takes about half an hour.

Tuesday's we try to stay home. Finish up yard work (Michael mows on this day) I get all of our computer stuff done, pay bills, fill out forms, write thank you cards. Then it's laundry and baby snuggles for me. Tuesday night we normally have leftovers so that I can get lunches for Michael prepped for the week. Then bath time for all 3 kiddos and after the last feeding at 7 I'm on my own for the night.

Wednesday- Friday are pretty much the same. I get Grayson up around 6:15 and dressed for school. My parent's pick him up and take him and then I'm on baby feeding all day trying to squeeze in a nap or shower and some small household chores. I try to pick one thing a day like dusting, dishes, vaccuming. But if I get nothing done because I'm busy holding a baby then so be it..

Saturday and Sunday are crazy. I usually have any where from 3-4 visitors. My mom comes on one of those days for a few hours and sends me to my bed room to get a few hours of uninteruppted sleep.

We are just doing the best we can and letting go of things that just don't get done at the end of the day. Giving ourselves a pass has been the best thing and since we have started to let the little things go we have been less stressed and more well rested. Sleep always wins in this house right now. We are planning on trying to get in a date night just the two of us sometime soon and a date night with just Grayson in the next week. Boy needs some big boy time with just us.

Happy Wednesday!


Knowing our family is complete

We are officially done having babies.

I had my tubes tied. This seemed like the best decision for lots of reasons mostly because we felt that our family was complete and since I was already in surgery it was the best option.

We talked about the number of kids we wanted when we first got married. He said one, I said three. We had Grayson and decided that two was our number and that after our second I would have my tubes tied and that would be that.

After having the miscarriage I still strongly felt like two was our number. We had been blessed with one and I remember praying like crazy to God to let us have just one more baby to complete our family.

Well I think he just heard the complete our family party because he blessed us with two more. And I can honestly say that we feel so complete. We have 3 of the most gorgeous kids there ever was, and we just love them so much it hurts. It makes me think that if we would have just had one and I had my tubes tied would I have felt like something was missing? And even though having a miscarriage was hard I get it now why it happened. I wouldn't trade these two nuggets that I have for anything, even that hard time.

But listen there was a part of me that was all sad that it was my last pregnancy, the last time I will get to see a sweet baby held up right after birth, the last time that I get to feel a baby kick me from inside and that I get to rub a giant belly. But I knew it was my last so I pushed that sadness aside and focused on soaking it all in.

With Grayson I spent so much time looking forward to the next big milestone. I think first time parents do this a lot because it's all so exciting. But you see at some point I blinked and bam he is 3 and thinks farts are funny. So now with my sweet Charlotte and Marshall I'm kissing their little noses more and holding them just a little bit longer. I'm not worried about getting them in their cribs, I'm just focusing on smelling that baby smell as long as I can.

I'm just thankful knowing that our family is complete and our hearts our so full of love.


My second c-section

Okay so a little back story before I dive into my second recovery.

I carried Grayson to 40 weeks 2 days when they found out I was having contractions and he was measuring 2 weeks ahead of time so they induced me. I was given pitocin and after being on the highest dose and no dialation at all and Grayson's heart rate starting to dip with each contraction it was decided that I would have a c-section. My beautiful baby boy came out at 10 pounds 4 ounces and the doctor said there was no way I would have delivered him because of his size he would have gotten stuck in the birth canal. Anyway that is my back story I make big babies and I had a c-section.

Flash forward to this pregnancy and I knew I was having a repeat c-section for a few reasons: 
1) it's hospital policy that they do not do V-bacs (purely for legal reasons) 
2) I had a really good c-section experience before and a pretty easy recovery
3) once I found out it was twins I knew it was a safer option in my opinion to do the section 
4) I make big babies 

So once I hit 20 weeks I was ready to schedule my section  (one of the perks of a repeat section you get to schedule it) well my doctor said no. Twin pregnancies are very unpredictable and labor can come on at anytime and so he was not going to take up a c-section spot on the calendar when chances are I would not make it to that date anyway. 

I was bummed! Go figure my doctor was right because I had my sweet babies at 35 weeks. I remember it was a lot like last time I was told around 9:30 that I was having the babies that day and I'm pretty sure they came in to prep me around 11:30 and took me back to the OR around 12 so not a ton of time to freak out about having major surgery. 

A few things were different this time. I had a different anesthesiologist and I was not a fan of the way he did my spinal. My previous section I sat on the table with my legs out in front of me flat on the table this time I had to dangle my legs off the side of the table. It was beyond uncomfortable and I felt like my catheter was going to fall out. Then I had to swing my legs back on the table and they already felt like they were asleep that was hard. 

The second thing that was crazy was the room seemed so much smaller because we had twice the amount of equipment and twice the amount of people. 

Also I elected to have my tubes tied (a whole other post for another day) while the doctor was already doing surgery. Because of this once the babies were out  I got a nice shot in my IV and went to sleepy town while he did the tubal. I remember nothing after I kissed my babies until I was wheeled in my room. 

I felt good that night until the next day when I had to get up and use the bathroom. Holy cow my stomach muscles were shot to hell. It was like nothing I had ever felt before.

They give you a not so great binder at the hospital and my doctor instructed me to wear it for about 4 hours each day and to get up and walk at the hospital for at least 10 mins a day. He also said to not get behind on pain meds for the first week and I really listened to that. And trust me one time I slept through a pain med and ouch I could not move. From then on I set my alarm and took them on time for the first week. Then after that I started to space them out going an hour longer here and there and by 10 day post surgery I was taking one to sleep and one if I had to go out somewhere ( like taking the twins to the doctors) by 2 weeks I was off of pain meds completly.

I showered every day I was there and that was a ton different this time. Last time the first 2 showers I had a nurse helped me this time the nurse that I had during my first shower left the room and I was solo. I did it myself but that wore me out big time. I attempted to walk a lap around the maternity ward about 24 hours after my surgery and started to have some issues with bleeding so I only made it about half a lap before I was sent back to bed.

The next day I felt better and made it 1.5 laps before I felt like it was too much. Every day it got better but that first day was for sure a ton harder than I remember. I was given the option of staying an extra day but decided that I was good with only staying 3 nights and then heading home. I wanted to get home to my big boy and start in on our routine.

The one thing I did this time that I didn't do last time was buy a really good binder. I got this one and while the price tag is up there it for sure helped with my recovery big time. I'm already much smaller than I was with Grayson and the support from it is so worth it.  I'm almost to the point where I need one size smaller to help hold me in more and even though I cringe at buying two, I need it. Having twins stretched out my stomach muscles super far and the constant support is necessary. So I have followed the instructions to a T. I wore it 24/7 the first week, only taking it off to shower and now I wear it any where between 16-20 hours a day. I find I sleep better at night with it on at this point but I think that soon I will just be wearing it during the day.

That's it. I'm almost 4 weeks out and feeling great. I go to the doctor in 2 weeks and I'm hoping for clearance to exercise.


A quick update

So my sweet babies are almost three weeks old (on Thursday) now and seriously why does it go so fast once the babies are here? My last few weeks of pregnancy were like pure torture and felt like they took forever and now that my babies are here it is going at warp speed.

Michael took two weeks of with me so that made last Thursday his first day back at work, leaving me at home with Charlotte and Marshall all by myself. Thankfully we decided to keep Grayson on his schedule of school and my parents are still picking him up and taking him for me so that I don't have to lug out all 3 kids (yet). I just have to get Grayson man dressed and ready to go out the door. The first day that he woke up and Daddy wasn't home was hard on him but thankfully now he is warming up to me again and we have been doing good. I try not to take it too personally seeing as how I was on bed rest for almost 4 weeks and he depended on Michael so much. He has no started going with me alone grocery shopping and let's me take him to bath now. I just love him so much and he is still the sweetest boy there ever was.

The feeding of two babies by yourself is tricky. Both babies take formula and are eating about 4 ounces every 3.5 to 4 hours. They still sleep a ton and so I feed one baby change them and get them back to sleep then do it all a second time. If they are good eaters that day (sometimes they can be slooooow) I can get them both changed and feed in an hour. I have still just been resting when they rest because out of 6 ish feedings a day I do 5 of them myself because of Michael now being back at work so that has been an adjustment.

I had my first weekend alone with all 3 kids. And let me just say it was intersting. We are still in the phase of the babies sleeping a ton and so Grayson and I fell into a pretty good routine of him sitting on my lap while I fed a baby and he played with one of his lego creations. It hasn't been perfect but it's a work in progress. I'm just super thankful that my biggest boy loves to help around the house so when I'm cleaning the 1454465 bottles that we used that day (because no we don't have a dishwasher) he pulls up a chair and helps wash them. Plus he still loves folding laudry.

Overall I feel like we are adjusting as best we can. When I do work on the computer (like pay bills and catch up on e-mails) Grayson comes in and plays by me so that's some one on one time. When Michael goes out to do yard work I stay in with the babies while him and Grayson go out. Some days are harder than others, but we are thankful everyday that we have been blessed with these 3 babies.

The twins as of last Wednesday are back up or exceeding their birth weight. Charlotte was right at it coming in at 6 pounds 12 ounces and Marshall was exceeding it at 6 pounds 12.5 ounces (birth weight 6 pounds 9 ounces). We are so thankfull for that because taking two infants to the doctors every 3 days for weight checks is a ton of work!  They go back for a one month check at the end of this month and Marshall has to go for an ultrasound of his hips this week. He was breech for more than half of my pregnancy so as a precaution our pediatrictian likes to have an ultrasound done before one month to make sure everything is okay.

Other than that we are just surviving and loving on all our babies.

I have a few posts I'm working on including my first Mother's Day to a mom of three kids and our favorite baby items for twins. Plus all about my second c-section and how it has been very different from my first.

Happy Tuesday!