And then I melted

I have a new schedule at work now. I don't know if I have posted about it before but Michael was having a harder time adjusting to 3 kids, and being alone with them then we originally thought. Listen 3 kids is hard and throw in two of them having the exact same needs usually at the exact same time and well it can be over whelming. Now my husband is an amazing daddy. He is stronger than he thinks but he just get's overwhemeled a little more easily and then has a hard time coming back from that overwhelmed feeling. Plus Murphy's Law states that all 3 children will do something/ lose their minds at the exact same time. It happens at least once a day.

So we worked with my boss that on Monday and Tuesday I will work 6-11 in the office and then work the rest of my shift (3 hours) from home. That way I can help with lunch and nap times. I have been doing this a couple months now and it has helped so much. Michael is less stressed, which means he is not as short with  me and we are just all around happier.

And before anyone reading this gets the wrong idea (becaue I would hate for that to happen) I do not fault my husband at all for not adjusting the same way I have. Men and women are different and we all handle things differently. But this does not change how I feel about him as a husband or father. He is simply amazing and I have even more respect for him that he admitted that he was having a hard time.

I get up to go to work at 4:30 and the twins have been having a small sleep regression so I have been letting Michael sleep in instead of getting up with me (which he usually does). So yesterday I was in the bathroom getting ready when I heard him come down stairs and go into the kitchen and then he came in kissed me and went back up to bed.

I have been having a hard time (which I do from time to time) with being a working mom. I love my job and all but sometimes I feel like there is never enough hours in the day and gosh darn it I just feel like I'm failing sometimes.The night before I had just had a long talk with Michael about it and he is always so sweet to me and listens to me be crazy.

But when I walked out into the kitchen to head to work and saw this

I literally cried. That man he takes care of my heart. That one little note is all I needed.


Life Lately

Life Lately is messy, beautiful, hectic, draining, fulfilling, crazy, dramatic, busy, loving. But above all it is blessed. Here is what we have been up to in the last few weeks. My crazy crew
This is what after school and work looks like everyday. Grayson playing and the babies wrestling.

These babies love to roll on each other now. I walk in the room and they are usually chewing on eachother's fingers or pulling eachother's hair all while drooling like crazy.

We went to a pumpkin patch on a whim one day after work. Just the five of us. Let me tell you what I left there feeling so proud. Michael and I got 9 pumpkins and didn't lose any kids or drop anyone. Plus there were no tears, from anyone! I did leave there sweating but proud because it was the first time Michael and I have tackled something like that as a family of 5.

Libby came and spent the night with me and the babies while my mom took B and Grayson. Let me just say having an 11 year old at your house is a dream. She watched the babies for me while I cleaned out Grayson's room and changed over his clothes from summer to winter. Plus I put away all the laundry and took a shower. I'm telling you a dream and if her mom and dad wouldn't miss her so much I would have her live with me.

Grayson and I made what he calls Monster Mix. Vanilla Chex, Marshmallows, Popcorn, crispy M&M's, peanut butter m&m's and then melted white chocoalte chips all over that. Then for good measure we put some Halloween sprinkles all over the top of it. Basically we just threw a mix of sweet and salty and bam we ate it all up. So So yummy.

The twins are officially in highchairs! Ahhhhhhh! Where does the time go it just blows my mind but how cute do they look?

We have already planned our summer vacation! This year we will be renting a cabin at Jellystone park and going with my brother and sister in law and the kids and my mom and dad.That is 6 adults and 5 kids and whole ton of crazy!!!! This park has a ton of activities for the kids. Mini golf, a water park, a lake and beach, 2 pools, 2 playgrounds, fishing, canoes, and so much more. Plus get this when you rent a cabin all of that stuff is included. We are so excited!

On Saturday my sweet Grandmother turnes 91. Let me just say if I live to be 91 let me be like her. She goes to church 3 times a week, knits everyday and gets up and dressed everyday. She still grocery shops and cooks. Bless her!We will be celebrating her with dinner tomorrow night at her favorite resturant.

Grayson is still loving his babies and must get snuggles in before school everyday.

Miss Thing has been waking up about an hour before my alarm goes off and so I bring her in bed with me. She falls asleep and we snuggle. I'm not going to lie I enjoy that time laying there with just her. I often feel like since ther are two babies I don't get a ton of good quality time with them. Like I'm always rushing onto the next one or onto their brother. Well Sissy just figured out how to get her one on one time and I love love love it.

Grayson is obsessed with football. He ran back and forth in our living room the entire Bills game on Sunday and went out and played football at half time in the front yard with Michael.

On Saturday my sweet mother showed up to watch the babies and let me and Grayson go pick apples just the two of us. It was awesome. I love his imagination right now. I mean we ran from bears and spaceships trying to get us. My sweet boy!

That's life around here. And it's only going to get crazier!


Show and Tell- Quirks

Linking up with Andrea for Show and Tell Tuesday

And today it's all about Quirks

Here goes nothing.....

 I must eat candy in even numbers. Yup if I have let's say M&M's and I get to the end of the bag and there are 5 left I will either give away the odd one or throw it out. I cannot eat 5. 
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 Again with evens but my volume on my radio or TV must be at an even number. Do not put it on 15 or 17 or even 21 Let's go with a 14 16 or 20 please. Also I always set my alarm for an even number. I want to get up at 4:15 well then I set my alarm for 4:14 or 4:16.
Fun fact my Dad is also this way so I'm guessing it's either genetic or he brainwashed me
Okay so all us ladies lose our hair it comes out most often when we are washing it and then it's all over our fingers. Well rather than send my hair down the drain (I have long hair I lose a ton) I pull it off my fingers slap it on the shower wall and swirl it around. So there are little circles of hair all over the shower wall.Now 98% of the time I remember to clean them off when I get out of the shower but on the off chance I forget my husband will call me in and kindly ask me to pick up the dead cat off the shower wall. 

I must watch a funny show before bed. Right now it's The Office. I have watched the whole series once before so I'm on my second time through. It's the perfect 20 ish minutes to calm me down before bed. 
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My food cannot touch on my plate. I do NOT like my food mixing. You know those people who pile up their plate on Thanksgiving and put their corn on top of their mash potatoes and gravy. BARF that makes my skin crawl. I get smaller portions so that my food can stay segregated. I actually have a plate with dividers at my Mom's house. Fun fact my brother is the exact same way. Our other siblings however are not. It's because we are the perfect ones.


I like kids PJ's. Grayson is going through a phase where he likes to always wear a tank top to bed. Ugh I like the matching kids PJ's. Ya know the sets? Yes I love those. Thankfully I have two other little ones that I can put in the cute PJ's. Plus now that I have twins I like to put them in matching PJ's. They have the sweetest Halloween ones. And not for nothing I bought them all matching Christmas ones that all 3 of them will be wearing. 

I have one more but I cannot do seven (see quirk# 1&2) so I will have to share that one at another time.

Okay and now nicknames

My neices and nephews call me Aunt Katie, My mom calls me Katy-B and my dad calls me Sweet Pea (always and forever he calls me this and I love it it's our song together)
Michael calls me Katers or a miriad of other names.

Now my kids they have the best nick names
Grayson: Grapes or Bubba or Bueller
Marshall: Marshy or Brubba or Marshmellow
Charlotte: Sissy or Charlips or Char Char

Basically we call our kids a ton of odd names
Happy Tuesday!


To the soon to be twin mommy/new twin mommy

I've been a twin Mommy for about six months now and man is it the most rewarding, yet draining thing ever. To be in it is the only way to understand it. This letter has been on my heart for a few weeks because sometimes you just need to know your not alone.

Dear soon to be twin mommy/new twin mommy,

Her girl! Congrats to joining this crazy world of being a mom to twins. It's crazy. Like really crazy. But it's beautiful. The pregnancy was not easy because ya know twins makes you high risk automatically, silver lining of that you get more sonograms!!! Who doesn't loves seeing those babies more. If you're near the end I get it honey your stomach feels like it's going to rip the eff open. It won't but I get it, I feel your pain. Walking to the bathroom is a marathon and you might be at the stage where you wonder if this is the time that huffing and puffing yourself off the couch will be the time that your water breaks.

Even if you have your babies early it's okay. God has a great plan. Pre-term labor will probably happen at some point. For me it hit at about 32 weeks. Super thankful that it happened though because it allowed for me to get the shots for the babies lungs. Which was awesome news when I went into real labor at 35 weeks. If your a first time mom just take it easy, let people take care of you and rest as much as you can. Trust me, your body is going to keep breaking down even more just relax. If your a second time mama (like me) this is torture for you. This will rip your heart out. Because you feel awful not being able to take care of your other babies. But you have to do it. You are the only one that can grow these beautiful babes. So just breath, cry when you feel like you need to, and hug and kiss your first born as much as you can. Accepting help was hard for me but I was so thankful for it because like I said going to the bathroom was a marathon.

Now here is something important, listen to your body. You are the one who knows it best.

When I went into the hospital again thinking it wasn't the real deal (spoiler alert it was) I was in so much pain. I was ready to meet my babies. But so so so nervous. How was I going to do it? Have two newborns? Forget the fact that I had a 3 year old and going to one baby would have been an adjustment now I was going to have TWO. TWO of them!

Let me tell you this the second they come your heart says "girl you got this" the love you feel and the relief I had that they were here and healthy and safe and I could kiss them what just amazing. It's okay to sob when you hear that first baby cry and then hold your breath until you hear the second scream.
It's okay that your first question is "they are okay right? and they can come home with me right?"
It might take them a few seconds, minuets, hours to be released from the nursery if they are born early (before 38 weeks). Just breath it will all be good. Pray like crazy because praying will become your go to.

Girl, Hug and kiss on those babies. I found that even when I was exhausted and tired and feeling myself becoming frustrated because "why won't they sleep already?!?!?!?!?" That I would just hold them and kiss them and be thankful for them. They are such a miracle and not one that everyone gets so soak it all in. But don't get it twisted I found myself in my sleep deprived state often times saying things like "why don't you love mommy I just neeeed to sleeeeep, pleeeease close your eyes!" It happens. Then they will make eye contact with you and your mush.

They will flip flop their personalities more times than you can count. In the hospital Charlotte was my easy eater and burper, and Marshall was so difficult. Fast forward 2 weeks and he is easy peasy and she is hard. Around 2 months Marshall was the most fussy baby known to man, he would only sleep in the swing and it took an hour to feed him 4 ounces. Now at four months she will yell when she is done being on her activity mat and she fights her night time bottle like a champ. They keep you on your toes that's for sure. No two feedings are the same, no day is the same, and just when your all I got this one of them will throw up, while your changing the other ones diaper and your three year old just dumped ice water all over the floor (not that that happened to me, just kidding it did)

Your going to go through a million and one emotions all within an hour.Crying because they are getting big too fast is normal. Then freaking out because holy cow they go through a ton of diapers, and oh my gosh how will we pay for two of everything all at once will race through your mind. Totally normal. Insane but normal. And don't even get me started on the body issues after having twins. Who knew a stomach could look like a deflated basketball. Plus I looked like I was still pregnant for a long long time after having those babies. Buy a good support girdle and keep it moving that's all you can do.

You and your partner will become a great team. You will have to depend on each other more than you know. Pick up the slack when he is down and he will do the same for you. Divide and conquer will be your new thing. Preparing to do anything takes some serious planning. All the bottles, burp cloths, bibs, extra clothes, diaper, wipes. It all has to come with you x2 and that's a ton. Plus you will freak out on him for the dumbest things (like the babies not wearing matching PJ's) when you realize your being crazy just say sorry. He will laugh at you and you will move on.

You got this girl. All of it. You were made to be the mommy to these babies, you can do this and you will do this. You will survive those hard hard days, and you will make it to the easy days and love every second. Just know from one mommy to another I'm here cheering you on, in your corner telling you those feelings are all okay to have and that asking for help is ok. Enjoy those babies mommy.


A Twin Mommy who is still trying to figure it all out and not lose her mind daily.