10.25.2016

And then I melted

I have a new schedule at work now. I don't know if I have posted about it before but Michael was having a harder time adjusting to 3 kids, and being alone with them then we originally thought. Listen 3 kids is hard and throw in two of them having the exact same needs usually at the exact same time and well it can be over whelming. Now my husband is an amazing daddy. He is stronger than he thinks but he just get's overwhemeled a little more easily and then has a hard time coming back from that overwhelmed feeling. Plus Murphy's Law states that all 3 children will do something/ lose their minds at the exact same time. It happens at least once a day.

So we worked with my boss that on Monday and Tuesday I will work 6-11 in the office and then work the rest of my shift (3 hours) from home. That way I can help with lunch and nap times. I have been doing this a couple months now and it has helped so much. Michael is less stressed, which means he is not as short with  me and we are just all around happier.

And before anyone reading this gets the wrong idea (becaue I would hate for that to happen) I do not fault my husband at all for not adjusting the same way I have. Men and women are different and we all handle things differently. But this does not change how I feel about him as a husband or father. He is simply amazing and I have even more respect for him that he admitted that he was having a hard time.


Anyway
I get up to go to work at 4:30 and the twins have been having a small sleep regression so I have been letting Michael sleep in instead of getting up with me (which he usually does). So yesterday I was in the bathroom getting ready when I heard him come down stairs and go into the kitchen and then he came in kissed me and went back up to bed.


I have been having a hard time (which I do from time to time) with being a working mom. I love my job and all but sometimes I feel like there is never enough hours in the day and gosh darn it I just feel like I'm failing sometimes.The night before I had just had a long talk with Michael about it and he is always so sweet to me and listens to me be crazy.

But when I walked out into the kitchen to head to work and saw this


I literally cried. That man he takes care of my heart. That one little note is all I needed.