Random and a Thank you

I just want to say that being one week out from that awful day seems like time moved so fast. It's an uphill battle that I'm working on climbing and if I'm being honest I don't know if I will be ok until I get pregnant again and I have a baby in my arms, and even then I don't know if I will ever be the same. This changes everything. It is a part of our story now. It's a chapter I wish wasn't there however God will use this in a way that I can't see yet, I have to believe that. And I don't want this to turn into a place where I come everyday and whine about what has happened to me. It's just to fresh right now and I need to process.

Grayson is the light in my life. I get really sad when I'm not with him. He is around and I'm better. I get to focus on him and not my crummy situation. I was reading an article about life after an early pregnancy loss and how it can affect your marriage. I think that this situation has really shown me how strong my marriage is. No it's not perfect but when things like this happen we grow closer and stronger. So thankful that I have that strong support from my husband. My parents have been going above and beyond to help us too. My mom picked Grayson up from school on Thursday and kept him until dinner so I could get myself together and then she took him on Sunday night overnight to Monday since that was the day I was having my surgery. Again she kept him until after dinner so that it was less time that Mommy couldn't pick him up.

At 3:30 today I start a 4 day weekend and I'm so excited. Friday Grayson still has school and I will be taking him and then spending the day cleaning and organizing some rooms in the house. Saturday we will spend at my parents going to the parade and what not. Sunday will be operation play outside all day. Monday Michael and I will be going shopping just the 2 of us. We normally go on my birthday but days off did not work out this year so we are going just a month late. My aunt is watching Grayson and we are going to spend some money on fun things!

I'm hoping to make a fun festive craft with Grayson and make a nice desert for our cookout on the fourth.

I just want to say thank you to everyone who has reached out and offered prayers and support it is so appreciated more than you will ever know.