Where I have been

I'm not trying to ignore this corner of the Internet really. I just have been struggling? with being here I guess.

I don't know how much I want out here on the Internet. The struggles we are going through? No one wants to hear about that kind of stuff. My Mom has cancer, My Uncle has cancer and I'm holding my shit together by the skin of my teeth.

I'm trying to organize my house because that is what I do when my head is a mess. I'm trying to soak up every second I have with my little family because they are what makes my head less messy. They make my heart so full and happy and my focus needs to be there.

I'm trying to plan a bridal shower with 5 other bridesmaids. 2 of which do not want to have any input but then bitch when decisions are made. Thankfully I have 3 other ones who are more than helpful. I'm crafting and planning and ordering like it's my JOB.

We are in the process of finishing up our yard list so that we can have a relaxing rest of the summer but it feels like with a tornado of a 15 month old there is no such thing as relaxing.

I'm working away trying find a better balance of work and home life. I have a pretty great job. Flexible and only 8 hours a day. But some days when my boys are home and having the best time I'm stuck in my office all day and that can be hard.

This is my last full week of work for a few weeks and that makes my heart so happy. I have Friday off because of the Fourth and then I took Monday off so that we can have a family day at the zoo. I crave more family time and I'm happy to have it.

Speaking of family time I find myself fighting myself with how to spend my very limited time when I'm home. If my house is not picked up and somewhat clean I get grumpy. But then if I'm not getting enough time with my boys I'm grumpy then too. It's a vicious cycle and I'm still trying to figure it out.

Basically I'm trying to get back here where I can just write about all of our fun things. I still want to talk about Father's day and our fun weekends we have been having. That is my new goal. To get back to talking about all of our fun things we have been up to.

Happy Tuesday everyone!