Dear Marshall

Dear Marshall,

Today you turn one
I mean tell me how that is possible.

I remember going into the hospital to have you wondering how on earth was I going to have two babies? How was I going to love two babies?

Then I heard the cries of two precious babies and bam I got two new hearts.

Sweet boy you have my heart. I always tell you and your siblings that I don't have just one heart I have a specific one for each of you. And that you and you alone get all the love that that heart has.

Well honey my heart for you is huge and filled with so much love.

You have come a long way since this day a year ago. You were born two minutes after your sister making you the baby of the family. You were 3 ounces smaller and smooshed in mama's belly. Aside from blood sugar issues that were quickly resolved after birth you were perfect. Blonde hair blue eyes and the best button nose.

You are the baby I didn't know I needed the one that God just knew I needed in my life and gave me despite my arguments for only have two kids. Now I can't imagine life without all of you.

You have changed so much since my last update on you. You went from the one who smiles at everyone to the one that reserves the smiles for those closest to him. You have kept your blue eyes and blonde hair and while it's crazy and long right now I kind of love it. You are pretty serious when entering new situations (like your big brother was and still is) and have to really observe everything.

You walk every where like you have just always walked and new this past week you climb!!!! Plus just last night you started opening our baby gates so we have to make sure we put the extra lock down because your always opening them and climbing the stairs or wandering into the kitchen and walking out with the dish towel and a kit kat bar.

Your big brother hung the moon and you just love him. You are the sweetest with your little sister because even when she steals your sussy you don't cry and you always try to give her your sussy if she is upset and can't find hers. Your big brother is chomping at the bit to be able to wrestle with you and I fear for that day because I can just see it now two boys wrestling all the live long day in my house.

Your my rock star sleeper. We sleep trained you back in December right after Christmas and that was the best thing ever. You only took two nights and now we just lay you in your crib awake but sleepy and you sleep a solid 11-12 hours a night. Don't tell the others but this makes you my favorite child (just kidding kind of because sleep is the like gold) You only had a rough sleep bought when your top two teeth were coming in and that caused you to spike a fever of 103 off an on for two days and to sleep like crap but once it broke through you were golden.

You transitioned to milk pretty easily although if it's too cold your not a fan. You have really up'd your eating came in the last few weeks and you just shovel it all in. Carbs are your favorite and I get it because yum, but really you eat it all.

Your no much of a talker yet but you have the yelling thing down. When you get super excited you let your a yell or squeal to let everyone know. You clap and wave goodbye. You chew on everything and you still have the best dimples with a scrunched nose smile. You can drop it like its hot any time a beat comes on. It is so hardcore while boy dancing that it is funny.

You are my random snuggler. You will be playing and then just come up and lay your head down on me for a few snuggles and then right back to playing. I hope you never out grow that.

Your nicknames are all over the place we mostly call you Bubba or Marshy. Marsh Man comes up quite often and Grayson always calls you Marsh Marsh. When people see you for the first time they always say you look like me and your big brother and well handsome boy we take that as a compliment.

You have the biggest hands and feet and I have a feeling your are going to be a big big boy. You are about 3 pounds more than our sister and an inch and a half taller. Slowly moving into 18 month clothing just in time for summer. We have to put you in 4 diapers at night so that you wont leak.

I just love you so so much. This year was amazing with you. To watch your grow to get be be your mom all of it was great. And while the sleepless nights are hard I'm glad we went through them mostly so I can appreciated the long nights of sleep you give me now.

Marshall Thomas Joseph Smith you are the best caboose to our family. We love you big and with all that we have. We are so blessed to get to have you in our lives every gosh darn day and we wouldn't trade it for anything.

Love Mama.